Sorry!

I'm horrible at this. I haven't been home alone in forever! Okay, so back to my favourite subject...

I only like TF and MC now right? Well today is Sunday so I was at church. I didn't know if TF was going to be there (MC's always there) so I didn't really know how things would go. So for a while now I've been trying to decide between them. Today, I chose TF. It was funny cuz on the way there in the car I was thinking to my self: You hardly see TF, you need to see MC because you're obsessed with him. So I'd decided to choose MC and follow him. But as soon as I see TF (yay he was there!!!!!) I changed my mind. Yup, MC was there, looking right at me but I chose TF. And a good choice that was. *sigh* He's so awesome. Right now, I am going to sign off, log on to Facebook, and send him an email dammit! (Yes he's my friend and I always freak out when I see that he's online!)

Bye for now,
Lola

PS: And wish me luck! I'm crossing my fingers... :)

I Heart Friday

I love today!!! First, I had a dentist appointment (yay! i know that's weird), then i ran some errands, now i'm going to my friend's house, and then i'm going to youth group and i'm going to see TF!!! Yay! I hope he's there. I really hope he's there. Sorry, I have to go. Write MORE later!

No Lists?

I don't think the lists are working. There's nothing to add to them anymore. Maybe I'll just keep on telling you my life story. Tell you all of my feelings about boys because, I really like them. I Love TF. I will most likely be seeing him twice every week. Yay! I wish it was more spread out though... I see him on Friday, and then I wait on Saturday, I see him on Sunday, and then I wait Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday!! Grr... at least he normally shows up. and BL hasn't been showing up to anything (she's sick) but I think she's just avoiding TF. Understandable, I would feel really bad if I dumped such an awesome guy like him. Even I would know that I was a bitch. Wow, that's my first real swear in this thing. I've been trying to keep it clean for all you youngers readers out there. But what the hell, if you don't like it then stop reading it. Or maybe I'll just keep it clean. Never mind. Ugh, I just want to see TF. It's Monday today so I still have to wait Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday and basically Friday. I mean youth group is at night. And this time it's a bible study instead of a FUN night so I can just sit there and stare at him. *sigh* I'm in love for real for the first time in my life. And as I type that I get this weird feeling in my stomack and TK's face comes into my head...

Solved!

Okay, this has to be quick. My Mom is in the shower right now so when she gets out, I have to leave. I figured it out! MC and TF. I was having a hard time figuring out who I liked better and I had absolutley NO IDEA so I was at church and I go to church with both TF and MC. So it's a long story and I'll tell you later but basically MC and TF were both in one room (I was in it too), and then TF left and without a thought I followed him. I didn't even glance at MC. I LOVE TF. I wish I could tell you who it was but I can't. I wish I could spell out his full name right here on this blog, but I can't. Seeing as he just broke up with BL I'm not sure if he likes me back. Sometimes he's looking at me and smiling and other times - nothing. At least we're friends on Facebook. I really want to send him a message but I can't think of a topic. Crap Bro's home!

I'm Not Crazy

I've decided that I'm definitley not crazy. I just love these guys. MC and TF. :) That's it. I love them. I'm pretty sure that MC likes me and TF is sendoing me mixed signals, sometimes it's so obvous and other times it's like I'm not even there. I wish that I was brave enough to make a move. Like how did BL get TF so fast? I didn't even know that it had happened until all of a sudden they were a couple on Facebook. And honestly, this is not because I'm jealous it's an honest opinion, they weren't a very good couple. He looked at her all the time, gazing at her from across the room, smiling at her, making fun of her (nicely of course) and she barely even looked his way. She'd slap him on the knee once or twice or sit beside him but... it wasn't obvious that she really loved him or anything. If he was my boyfriend I would be sitting beside, holding onto his arm, laughing at things he said, making fun of him, looking at him from across the room... etc. I don't think that you really realize how lucky you are to have someone until you can't have them anymore. Well I hope she wants him back cuz he does not want her back. He's plotting ways to get her back actually! Like in the pull a prank on her or make her jealous or something like that. Anyway, on with the lists:

HATES:

BL
RH
Not being able to think of anything else


LOVES:

TF
MC
Being able to think of something else


I'm sorry those were really bad lists! I seriously can't think of anything else though. I'm absorbed in my TF/BL, MC, being boy-crazy, ME&TF, ME&MC thoughts to think about anything else so that's about it. I hope that you are not getting bored.

Goodbye for now!

Boringly,
Lola

Deadly

Deadly. Boys are deadly. Deadly creatures. So you know how I had this BIG crush on TK? Well I want to let you know that it's very hard to keep on liking someone THAT MUCH when you hardly ever seen them. I haven't seen TK since the time that I went on and on about him, that's like a week and a half. I use the lists to explain my new feelings:

HATES:

Whatever let's skip to the good list!

LOVES:

MC
TF

You think that I'm being unreasonable and stupid. I know. You're probably thinking: "Who's MC?" and "TF has a girlfriend! Remember BL?" But here's the good (ahem GREAT) news! BL dumped him! Oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh! I just saw him tonight and I really like him! And hahaha he's thinking of ways to get BL back! :) So he's not dissapointed he's just pissed! I'm so happy. Okay, I will now give you the story on MC.

MC is cute. He is very cute. And not like baby cute. Like hot cute. His smile is like - wow! And he's nice and funny and I'm pretty damn sure that likes me back. Sometimes I try to convince myself that I don't like him anymore because I've liked him for so long but then I'll see him again and go back to liking him! It's amazing. Or else, I'll start to think that maybe I just like him so much because I like him as a friend. But nope. I definitley LOVE him. *sigh* *sigh sigh sigh* I am boy crazy. And I hope being boy crazy. It drives me crazy! Before I go CRAZY I will sign off.

Thanks for listening,
Lola