I Miss You

Well, it's been a really long time. And I am very sorry. I'm leaving for California in 2 days. I will be there for 10 days. I'm still in love with BT. Here's the status:

Bro - thinks I like no one
RD - thinks I like no one
KK - thinks I like no one (not for long)
JS - thinks I like DV (don't know why)
CM - thinks I like BT (congrats)

So yeah. Other than that, there is nothing much to tell. Actually wait, that's a lie. I kissed MC. It was Truth or Dare but still. It was horrible. I used to like being friends with him, but now I just hate him. He's rude, disrespectful, selfish, mean, and ugly. And he got pink braces. I hate that.

Anyway, goodbye.

Messed-up-ingly,
LC

What color is your soul painted?

What color is your soul painted? Blue Your soul is painted the color blue, which embodies the characteristics of peace, patience, understanding, health, tranquility, protection, spiritual awareness, unity, harmony, calmness, coolness, confidence, dependability, loyalty, idealism, tackiness, and wisdom. Blue is the color of the element Water, and is symbolic of the ocean, sleep, twilight, and the sky. Click Here to Take This Quiz

Quizzes and Personality Tests

I Need A Little More Luck Than A Little Bit

I will waking up for a couple of seconds from my long September to wish BT a silent 'Happy Birthday! I love you!!!' on September 17th. After that, I will fall into a deep sleep once again.

And also, after this post I will no longer be using any more 'sleeping/napping' metaphors.

Gotta go, more very soon.

Helplessly,
LC

Wake Me Up When September Ends

This is going to be a short post. There isn't REALLY anything exciting to write. (Except that I witnessed a mugging last night but... NO HONESTLY I REALLY DID. But I can't tell you now cuz my fingers are aching) I'm not going to see BT in September (for more than two minutes at least) so I may as well just take a nice month-long nap. Wake me up. But don't worry, I'll still continue posting during the month of September. I'll just be sleeping...

Yawningly,
LC

Baby, Look At Us

I saw BT again yesterday and I have bad; no not bad, HORRIBLE news. He probably walked past me like, four times and he didn't look at me once. I saw him looking from severeal feet away twice but, that could mean anything! I have really NO IDEA, NO CLUE if he likes me or not. I'm sick of this guessing. But he's worth it. :D

Other guys are so easy to read. They're like an open book. BT is like a closed book that I have to struggle to open but what's inside is: NOTHING. What a metaphor huh? *massive sighs*

So as always, I will keep you posted. A shout out to my bad-at-commenting fans! Love you. And I love BT, of course.

Blankingly,
LC

When You're Gone The Pieces Of My Heart Are Missing You

I just saw him yesterday and he is living proof that the more you see people, the more you miss them. Well, important very much loved people anyways, like BT. I mean, I miss him a lot when I haven't seen him in like a month but some of the memories of when I last saw him will start to kind of fade away. Whereas, I just saw him yesterday and these memories are still fresh in my mind.

Anyway, I suppose I will tell you about yesterday. My finger is no longer aching and there isn't even a mark to remember it by. Gotta love wasps huh? Don't leave any proof, just leave the pain. That way there is only one eye witness, and sometimes none. But moving on, I'll stop ranting.

YESTERDAY:
Bro decided to invite BT over. I was babysitting and when I got home Bro goes: "Oh yeah I hope you don't mind, BT is coming over in like, ten minutes."

IN MY MIND/THE REAL ME:
I'm thinking: "Yessssssssssssssssssssss!!!! I'm gonna see BT!!!! I'm gonna see BT!!!!! Woot woot!!" And so on....

REALITY CHECK/ME IN HUMAN FORM:
I roll my eyes and say: "God Bro, are you kidding me? Why HIM???!!!!????"

So anyway, twelve minutes goes by: BZZZZZZ! goes the buzzer. BT has arrived! We spend the first half hour or so playing SSX on the PS2. I beat BT every time. Hahaha. We then went to a store by my house and bought Lime Crush and Extra Island Blend gum. After that, we went to a park near my house and played Grounders and Tag. After that, Bro and BT went to soccer practice and I was abandoned, home alone, left to daydream about the days events. I had fun. So yes, in case you haven't figured it out yet, I still love that boy.

Lonelying,
LC

The Bee Does Quickly Sting

Or in this case, the wasp stings REALLY freaking fast. OUCH. There was a wasp on my finger that I must have squished because it stung me on the inside of my middle finger on my right hand. So I go: "Ow!" and try to wipe it off. It somehow gets onto my arm and stings me there! OWowowowowowowwowowOW!!!

Anyways, I was with BT when this happened. But I will try and tell you the full story tomorrow because my finger is still aching from that damn wasp.

Ouchingly,
LC

Thanks Ya

Hey,
I forgot to this a while ago. A big thank you to Ashley Kay from 27brokendreams for posting a comment!!! I love your blog.

My other readers; check it out:

www.27brokendreams.blogspot.com

Keep reading!! Love you guys!!! More song recommendations coming soon (on www.lcsongs.blogspot.com), more song demands coming soon (fresh from HERE), and more information on the dreaded yet so so loved: BT.

Bye for now.

Postingly,
LC

It Hurts

Holla,
LC again. Who else?

Tell me: How can I hate someone (say, BT?) so much and cringe when I hear his name because I hate hearing about the stupid things he does and still dream about him at night and wake up smiling when we end up together?? I woke up this morning with the image of him holding my hand in my head and my heart was beating faster and the squeezing feeling deep down that I get every time I think about him like that. How can he keep doing the things that he does to me now like he did before he found out that I liked him? Before I found out that he most likely doesn't like me back? Before I stopped seeing him practically twice every week? I hardly see him now and it just gets harder and harder. Is it possible to be completely and uncontrollably in love with someone at the same time as hating them?

Listen to this song (this isn't a recommendation, it's a demand):

The Nicest Thing - Kate Nash

Listen to the full song (you have to) on www.jango.com

That is EXACTLY, spot-on how I feel.

In happier news, I've stopped biting my nails. Kicked the habit. I've always started painting my nails with cool bright neon colours and also clear nail hardener. They're getting pretty long.

For more from me visit: www.lcsongs.blogspot.com

Twistedly,
LC

Why The Rain?

Come on! Was it really necissary (That is NOT spelt right) to get rid of the sun? I know it's the end of August but the summer started late in the first place, so why can't it just end late??

Today, I went to my church which I'm pretty sure TF doesn't go to anymore. I might never see him again actually. Whatever. MC was there, and I think I really like just being friends. He's a nice guy, even if he is kinda crude. I don't think I told you this but: I told MC that I liked BT. I told him about a month ago and I hadn't seen him since. But I just saw him this morning again. BT wasn't at church. :( But I'm sure I'll see him soon. It's been two weeks since I've seen BT now.

Oh I have something that I forgot to tell you. I'm not sure if I told you HOW I told BT that I liked him. Actually, I didn't. Okay, we were playing Truth or Dare along with Bro and first, Bro dared BT to kiss me on the cheek. Me!!!!! So he did and it was fantastic and yada yada yada...
Anyway, it was BT's turn now so he Truth or Dare'd me and I said "Truth". (He is REALLY good at making up dares, so I said Truth every time he asked me) So he said: "Who do you like?" And I'm thinking 'Oh my god holy crap this is not not not good at all!!!! What am I going to do???' But after a while, I just told him. I figured, why not?? Right??

So anyway, I still don't know for sure if he likes me but that's okay. I still love him and that's all that matters. :)

Well, ta-ta for now! I will write very soon. By the way, I'm getting rid of the Guy-Dar. It's stupid. And I am also sorry for not writing in 'My Songs' yet. If you've checked that anyways. But I'll start soon. Oh and I'll post the link to 'My Songs' later as well. Did I ever even teel you about 'My Songs'?? Hmm.... well anyway now I have.

Itchingly,
LC

Cancelled Camping Trips = ?

I was going to go camping this weekend at Alice Lake from Thursday night (tonight) to Sunday morning. But because of this horrible weather, my trip has been cancelled. And with this free time I will most likely spend it:

1. Going to the theatres to watch the second Sisterhood movie

2. Drinking my first Booster Juice. Yes, I know it's crazy but I really haven't had one

3. Babysitting for that extra pocket $$$

4. Lounging around the house being bored

5. Playing with my Dad's new iPhone

6. And watching MUCH all day long on the TV, hoping that my favourite music videos will snag the top positions in the time-consuming MUCH countdowns.

Pretty productive huh? But if I had gone camping I probably wouldn't be doing much else anyway. I'd just sit in the rain, maybe playing cards, wondering how the hell I got here and why I'm not at home doing one of those six things.

But currently, I am waiting for my friend JS to call me back already and tell me if she's allowed to go to the movies or not. My Mom and Bro are on a run right now. Yeah I know: GEEKS. Well, not exactly I suppose but... I don't know.

Anyways seeing as I just wrote yesterday and I do not have an interesting life like my favourite Working Girl, I will have to stop typing now. Unless I want to continue blabbering on about random things like my favourite colours (green, orange), how bored I am (very), and other stuff that you really don't need (or want) to know about.

So on that note:

Juicily,
LC

Sorry sorry sorry

Well, aren't I a bad person? Not writing is unexceptable, I know. And the only excuse I have is that I've been away like, ALL THE TIME. So sue me, I haven't written. But it's not you that forces herself to sit down on the computer (well not actually ON the COMPUTER, but you know what I mean), share her life story, while happily enduring the pain of the severe finger aches. So anyways, I have a LOT to tell you. A LOT. To make it easier to understand, I will break it down into six very simple (yet quite complex) topics:

1. I told BT that I liked him.

2. I'm pretty sure he doesn't like me back.

3. However, I kept right on loving him.

4. I then forced myself to stop liking him for different reasons. (Well maybe NOT different but...)

5. I replaced him (BT) with EH.

6. I replaced EH with... yeah wait for it... BT. Erg. I can't help it. No matter how hard I try, I still wake up thinking about him and I still fall asleep dreaming about him. And I saw somewhere (actually Facebook) that you should "never give up on someone that you can't go a day without thinking about". I literally cried when I saw that. That's how pathetic I am. That's how pathetic he's made me.

So that is more of my depressing life. I'm pretty sure I've already told you that I write books so I will now tell you that I might indeed write an autobiography someday.

So right now, I am lying to everyone that found out about BT (including my family and two of my close friends) and telling them that I like EH. But pretty much, it's self-defense. At least I'm not lying to my bestest (BT says that all the time) friend: Lily Linkette. Yeah, you know who you are. I haven't told her face-to-face but she'll read this soon enough. Besides, it's easier this way.

So anyhoo, I promise to give the very long, detailed, unabridged, indepth version of these six topics soon enough but not now. Honestly, I've already thought, and overanalyzed (is that spelt right?), and stressed, and dreamt about these topics for too long now. So you'll just have to wait because I really don't want to type it out right now.

So with that, I will sign off extremely temporarily. You know I love you. :)

Patheticly,
LC

Reading

I like to read. Novels, mostly. "Juvenile fiction" as my Mom says. "Teen fiction" really. Non-fiction is... blech! BORRRRIIINNNNGGGGGG. I like to read about girls my age. Especially when they have problems like: Alchoholic parents, eating disorders, death in the family, car accidents etc.... that sort of thing. I'm also pretty into the Gossip Girl series. Fun to read.
I also sometimes read magazines. You know, the teen magazines. I try to get Seventeen every month. That's the one I really like. J-14, Tiger Beat, Astro Girl, Popstar... Thanks, but I could definitely live without.
I'm currently reading Aurelia. I can't remember who wrote it... but it's okay I guess. I just finished Story Of A Girl as well as Sweethearts by Sara Zarr. Both VERY GOOD.
Anyway, I should probably sign off. Mom'll be home any minute now. Later.

Bookwormingly,
LC

Fun Times

I suddenly realize just how fun this blogging thing really is. I was reading these two blogs, both about a "Working Girl".
I'll include them for some fun reads:
http://work-girl.blogspot.com
AND
http://working-girl.blogspot.com

You have fun with those. I had already briefly seen 'work-girl' and I went looking for it again. I typed in the 'working-girl' address and ended up on that. I find both blogs quite fascinating.
Both good authors I must say. I hope you fin dme to be a good author. I'm kind of teenager-ish where as, both 'working girls' are adults. I am a teenager after all. I don't live in Surburbia. That was a random fact that I felt I needed to share with you.

What do you think about the new song: I Kissed A Girl. Yes, I know you've heard of it. Maybe not actually HEARD IT but you've heard OF IT. I know that. So if you haven't yet heard it then go on to iTunes Music Store and go listen to the sample. If you have heard it and/or bought it, then tell me what you think. Some comments would be nice you people. Yes, I know you're there.

Maturely,
LC

(PS: If you really want to know: I STILL LOVE BT!!!!)

Promised Web Address

http://theguydar.blogspot.com

It is coming soon okay? I have entered an entry so check it out!!!! THE REAL THING IS COMING SUPER SOON!! But check it out.

Lovingly,
LC

Yeah, Still

Okay so, I still like BT. I am definitely and completely over MC (phew), TF (long time ago), and, well kind of TK. I still like him but not in that WAY. Haha. DV is over too, don't like him anymore either. I realized that I haven't told you about MH before. Ergh I wish I could tell you their real names but, it pays to be anonymous sometimes.
Anyway, about MH. It is so crazy how increibly nice he is. I admit, he is nicer than BT. But he's not that cute (or hot, ahaha) and he's not as funny as BT. Plus, he just doesn't have the.... I don't know what that BT has. He has this like, "air" about him that is SO COOL. Plus, I don't think he likes Ocean anymore. Phew! I hope no one I know finds this blog.... Ahh.
BT is just braver than MH. Extrovert = BT. Introvert = MH. So... I still like (LOVE) BT way more but MH is in my radar. Oooh hey, I have an idea! Instead of the 'lists' that I used to have I'm going to have a "guy-dar". So everyone (every guy) that's in my radar will be shown here on my "guy-dar". I'll start my guy-dar next time.
It's been a long time since I've written! Wow. Anyways... hmm maybe I'll just do my guy-dar now. There's nothing else to write about. Okay, here we go:

NO! Wait, I'm going to create a seperate blog! Okay, so every time you want to check the guy-dar you'll have to go to a diffrent blog. Everytime I post on this blog, I'll include the web address to the guy-dar. I'll go make it right now! Bye for now!

(I'll post again in a sec with the guy-dar web address)

Newly,
LC

Ahhhh!

Ahh I haven't seen BT in forever! It's Friday and I haven't seen him since... Saturday. Oh. But ti feels like forever! Yeah so I think I'm finally OVER DV. No more tenny butterflies when his name is mentioned. Sure he's funny but I don't have to have a crush on evry single guy who is funny or cute or nice. Plus, it feels like I'm over everybody now that I love BT. I can't believe that I said that I loved MC! Like what?? Ahh I never loved him. Yes, I really liked him but never loved him. Same for TF. I'm over too now. :) Thanks BT! Although, now that I've said all this I do still have a soft spot for TK. He's really cute, and kind, and funny. He's a bad boy which I admit I do like. And he is also a gentleman at the very same time. But I only like him a teeny bit, and that is allowed. I still LOVE LOVE LOVE BT. I gotta go. More very soon! POST COMMENTS!!

Okayy soo....

Sorry I haven't written in like forever!!! So pretty much I'm totally over MC cuz he SUCKS compared to BT. And who is BT you ask??? Oh only the most amazing guy in the whole wide world! I can't do a really really long entry right now explaning why I love him love him love him but I will explain later. But for now I will only share the bad news: he likes Ocean. What kind of name is that?? I hate her. More later.
Really madly,
Lola C

Quick!

Sorry I haven't written in a long time and I don't have much time now... I just wanted to clear it up: I love MC. Who cares about all the other guys and this is for real this time. Seriously, I feel sick when I'm without him. Today was proof.

Furiously in love,
Lola

Sorry!

I'm horrible at this. I haven't been home alone in forever! Okay, so back to my favourite subject...

I only like TF and MC now right? Well today is Sunday so I was at church. I didn't know if TF was going to be there (MC's always there) so I didn't really know how things would go. So for a while now I've been trying to decide between them. Today, I chose TF. It was funny cuz on the way there in the car I was thinking to my self: You hardly see TF, you need to see MC because you're obsessed with him. So I'd decided to choose MC and follow him. But as soon as I see TF (yay he was there!!!!!) I changed my mind. Yup, MC was there, looking right at me but I chose TF. And a good choice that was. *sigh* He's so awesome. Right now, I am going to sign off, log on to Facebook, and send him an email dammit! (Yes he's my friend and I always freak out when I see that he's online!)

Bye for now,
Lola

PS: And wish me luck! I'm crossing my fingers... :)

I Heart Friday

I love today!!! First, I had a dentist appointment (yay! i know that's weird), then i ran some errands, now i'm going to my friend's house, and then i'm going to youth group and i'm going to see TF!!! Yay! I hope he's there. I really hope he's there. Sorry, I have to go. Write MORE later!

No Lists?

I don't think the lists are working. There's nothing to add to them anymore. Maybe I'll just keep on telling you my life story. Tell you all of my feelings about boys because, I really like them. I Love TF. I will most likely be seeing him twice every week. Yay! I wish it was more spread out though... I see him on Friday, and then I wait on Saturday, I see him on Sunday, and then I wait Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday!! Grr... at least he normally shows up. and BL hasn't been showing up to anything (she's sick) but I think she's just avoiding TF. Understandable, I would feel really bad if I dumped such an awesome guy like him. Even I would know that I was a bitch. Wow, that's my first real swear in this thing. I've been trying to keep it clean for all you youngers readers out there. But what the hell, if you don't like it then stop reading it. Or maybe I'll just keep it clean. Never mind. Ugh, I just want to see TF. It's Monday today so I still have to wait Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday and basically Friday. I mean youth group is at night. And this time it's a bible study instead of a FUN night so I can just sit there and stare at him. *sigh* I'm in love for real for the first time in my life. And as I type that I get this weird feeling in my stomack and TK's face comes into my head...

Solved!

Okay, this has to be quick. My Mom is in the shower right now so when she gets out, I have to leave. I figured it out! MC and TF. I was having a hard time figuring out who I liked better and I had absolutley NO IDEA so I was at church and I go to church with both TF and MC. So it's a long story and I'll tell you later but basically MC and TF were both in one room (I was in it too), and then TF left and without a thought I followed him. I didn't even glance at MC. I LOVE TF. I wish I could tell you who it was but I can't. I wish I could spell out his full name right here on this blog, but I can't. Seeing as he just broke up with BL I'm not sure if he likes me back. Sometimes he's looking at me and smiling and other times - nothing. At least we're friends on Facebook. I really want to send him a message but I can't think of a topic. Crap Bro's home!

I'm Not Crazy

I've decided that I'm definitley not crazy. I just love these guys. MC and TF. :) That's it. I love them. I'm pretty sure that MC likes me and TF is sendoing me mixed signals, sometimes it's so obvous and other times it's like I'm not even there. I wish that I was brave enough to make a move. Like how did BL get TF so fast? I didn't even know that it had happened until all of a sudden they were a couple on Facebook. And honestly, this is not because I'm jealous it's an honest opinion, they weren't a very good couple. He looked at her all the time, gazing at her from across the room, smiling at her, making fun of her (nicely of course) and she barely even looked his way. She'd slap him on the knee once or twice or sit beside him but... it wasn't obvious that she really loved him or anything. If he was my boyfriend I would be sitting beside, holding onto his arm, laughing at things he said, making fun of him, looking at him from across the room... etc. I don't think that you really realize how lucky you are to have someone until you can't have them anymore. Well I hope she wants him back cuz he does not want her back. He's plotting ways to get her back actually! Like in the pull a prank on her or make her jealous or something like that. Anyway, on with the lists:

HATES:

BL
RH
Not being able to think of anything else


LOVES:

TF
MC
Being able to think of something else


I'm sorry those were really bad lists! I seriously can't think of anything else though. I'm absorbed in my TF/BL, MC, being boy-crazy, ME&TF, ME&MC thoughts to think about anything else so that's about it. I hope that you are not getting bored.

Goodbye for now!

Boringly,
Lola

Deadly

Deadly. Boys are deadly. Deadly creatures. So you know how I had this BIG crush on TK? Well I want to let you know that it's very hard to keep on liking someone THAT MUCH when you hardly ever seen them. I haven't seen TK since the time that I went on and on about him, that's like a week and a half. I use the lists to explain my new feelings:

HATES:

Whatever let's skip to the good list!

LOVES:

MC
TF

You think that I'm being unreasonable and stupid. I know. You're probably thinking: "Who's MC?" and "TF has a girlfriend! Remember BL?" But here's the good (ahem GREAT) news! BL dumped him! Oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh! I just saw him tonight and I really like him! And hahaha he's thinking of ways to get BL back! :) So he's not dissapointed he's just pissed! I'm so happy. Okay, I will now give you the story on MC.

MC is cute. He is very cute. And not like baby cute. Like hot cute. His smile is like - wow! And he's nice and funny and I'm pretty damn sure that likes me back. Sometimes I try to convince myself that I don't like him anymore because I've liked him for so long but then I'll see him again and go back to liking him! It's amazing. Or else, I'll start to think that maybe I just like him so much because I like him as a friend. But nope. I definitley LOVE him. *sigh* *sigh sigh sigh* I am boy crazy. And I hope being boy crazy. It drives me crazy! Before I go CRAZY I will sign off.

Thanks for listening,
Lola

Sickness

Ugh! I have a cold. But who cares about that right? I'll just start my lists:

HATES:

RH
Tomatoes
Broccoli
Honeydew
Amy Winehouse
Being sick
BL (well, she's a nice girl but she stole my crush; and in just THREE DAYS!!!!)
Behind Enemy Lines (Movie)

LOVES:

TK
MC (another crush that I have yet to explain, I seriously need to get a list going for that)
Sledding
Not being sick
The smell of fresh air
Avril Lavigne
Hellogoodbye (band, not a greeting)
Orange (colour, not fruit; although I'm not saying that the fruit is bad)
Freaky Friday (Movie)
Sunny winter days
Summer
Cultus Lake Water Slide Park!! (I hope I hope and I hope that we can go this summer!!)
Reading (Books)


And that should probably be it for the H&L lists or else I will have explained my whole life in two lists and then I'll have nothing else to say. That won't be a very good blog.

Just so you know, (in case I haven't explained it already) my name isn't actually Lola Copacabana. But I'm quite enjoying this anonymous thing. Is that spelt right? I'm never sure if I can speell 'anonymous' right. Who cares. Again, post comments if I spelt it right!! Listen, I don't want you to post comments so that my blog can get popular but it's cuz I actually want to read them! I LOVE reading comments for anything! I don't know I just do. Anyway, I will see you later.

Sickly,
LC

Not Fair

Today, Bro and I made plans to go sledding up at C Park. Yeah that's right! It snowed a ton! Anyway, so Bro invites a bunch of his friends and only one of them i able to go. I happen to be friends with his friend's little sister so I'm like Great! I also invited two of my friends, RD couldn't come and JS was pretty sure that she could make it happen. Then the family that Bro invited calls back and says: "We've got another offer, a bunch of CK and KK's friends are outside having a snow war in the yard right now so you guys should come and join instead of going sledding!" So Bro's all excited about that so he decides to ditch sledding and go for the snow war. But I'm sick of snow wars because of the whole "Pissed Off" story and I still really wanted to go sledding at C Park! So I ask Mom if JS and I can just go and she says that it's a pain to drive to CK's house AND C Park so she says that unless we can get a ride with JS's family (which we can't) then we're screwed. So we're screwed. Why does Bro have to be the favourite child? I am so sick of living in his shadow. And I'm sick of him being so clueless about it. Dammit all to hell. Damn all the favourite children. If you are a favourite child then stop reading this blog, I don't want your slimy eyes all over my blog.

Goodbye for now.
Wishingly yours,
Lola Copacabana

Lists of Life

Good title huh?? Jeez life is simple. I've thought of something that will make this blog more exciting than just sharing my life story. I will have my Hates List and my Loves List. Sound good? So for everything (or anyone) that I love or hate, I will make a list of it and post it on here. Sound good? I hope that people are actually reading this. If you are, post comments!!

Okay, I will start my lists now:

HATES LIST:
RH
BL (she's a nice girl but she stole TF)
Snowball fights

Ah crap I've gotta go, Mom's back!!!!

Exhausted and Pissed Off

It's Lola! Yup I'm back. The reason why I'm tired: I had to get up at 6;45 this morning: ON A WEEKEND!!! Reason why I'm pissed off: Because there's this really annoying boy that I know whose name is RH and he's Bro's age. So I'm having a snowball fight with my friend KK, her brother CK, his friend SH and then RH. We made a rule that we couldn't shoot from close range AND no face shots. So being RH, he comes up close to me and then throws a snowball right into my eyes. I couldn't open my eyes for five minutes. I'M DEAD SERIOUS. I hate him! I hate I hate him I hate him. Forever.
Anyway, sorry about leaving so suddenly. Dad flushed the toilet. Hahaha. I have another story about a boy to tell you, his name is P? (sorry I don't know what his last name is but you'll understand once i tell you the story). I'm not going to tell you right now because well, I'm tired and pissed off.

Crankily,
Lola C

Short One...

Okay this might not work because my Dad is in the bathroom right now so I'm just going to write a short post. Today we got a flat screen TV!! Like oh my god right??!!! Wow that sounded really obnoxious. Ugh I can't do this I'm getting too worried. Okay when I hear the flush, I'll click PUBLISH. No matter where I am in a sentence. Well, it's snowing. There's some news. Why can't it just snow on Christmas??
Hmm.... I think I need to make this blog a little more exciting. I need to make a list of some sort, give you guys some gossip, some secrets! But how? Should I make FLUSH!

Babysitting

Lola here. Sorry I haven't written in so long. But I haven't been at home alone ina while so it kinda made writing tricky. But here I am at my babysitting client's house typing away. You might be wondering why I'm not actually taking care of the kid but that's because I don't have to. I mean, he just woke up and he just turned two. All I have to do is plop him down and occasionally look back to see where he has. Easy! I've still got about an hour of babysitting left so I'm free to write all I want.
Okay, so I haven't told you about DV yet. He and I kind of have a long story. Here goes: My brother and DV's little brother JV, were best friends in pre-school (if it's even possible to have best friends in pre-school) so obviously DV and I met. Plus my Mom and his Mom got to be quite close so you can imagine that our families hung out quite a bit. So I actually saw DV quite a lot. He's the same age as me so while our brothers were in pre-school we were both in Grade 1. I'm not sure if he liked me then but I did. I had a massive Grade 1 crush on him. Yup, that's for sure. Anyway, JV and Bro ended up going to different kindergartens, and then in elemantry school my brother was homeschooled and JV was put into public school. So I forgot all about DV. Now this is the fun part. Bro and JV both played soccer. JV played in Lions Gate and Bro played in Lynn Valley, so they never played each other. But then JV switched to Lynn Valley and they started playing each other! So I'd see DV at the games and also JV and Bro became best buds again! Good or bad? I'd ask myself. Cuz all of a sudden there's DV my long time 1st Grader crush and he's not even that appealing anymore; but then I learned something. DV has a massive crush on ME and he thinks I'M hot!! And that is just weird. So anyway he loses all this weight, cuts his hair and all of a sudden he's appealing again. So now we're both crushing on each other but we don't say anything and we don't see each other nearly enough for anything to happen and then BAM! Bro and JV have a fight. They stop being friends and I stop seeing DV. So I keep on having a teeny crush on him while going through other big crushes. Oh and by the way, I'm boy crazy. Just to let you know. Well sort of. Kind of. Anyway, so Bro is getting all sad cuz he lost his best friend and I'm still homeschooled and DV goes to high school with the girls from my soccer team so through them I hear about his crushes and his girlfriends and I wonder secretly inside my head if he still likes me. And then Bro sends JV an apology email and there back together (no not in that way) and I'm wondering if DV and I will start seeing each other again. I just saw him two nights ago and I waved at him and he waved back but, he didn't even cracka smile. Odd. So I have no idea what to think. So that's where I'm at now. And meanwhile while this is all happening I still have a thing for TK. Yippee! NOT.

So anyway, I guess you're wondering about my opinions on other things besides boys. Well my favourite colour is Orange, my clothing style is Sporty/Rebel, I'm writing a book, I'm not goth, I'm not girly, a handful of boys have crushes on me and I enjoy my life. I don't love it I don't hate it but I enjoy it.

I also have friends. RD is my best friend. The only problem is I can't trust her with my life. I just can't tell her everything. I know she went tell her friends or boys or anything but I think she thinks it's funny when she tells my Mom or her Mom my secrets. But it's not funny, that's the thing. SO NOT FUNNY. But she has a great sense of humour, she's actually quite pretty in a normal sort of way, she has horrrible music/fashion tastes but whatever. She is very by the book and sensible which quite frankly, keeps me out of trouble so that's a good thing. And I can tell that she really likes me so there you have it, best friend. I've got another problem though, I have another friend: JS. She has been my friend for about nine years now. Best friend sometimes, temporary fighting sometimes, good friend other times and currently, pain in the ass. Okay I've gotta go. Baby's crying. Poor guy. Write more later.

Sincerely,
Lola Copacabana

How???

I am homeschooled. So yeah it makes it hard to actually see the guys that I have crushes on because of course, they're in school. Anyway:

Oh my god how is this even possible!!!??? Okay so I have a crush on this TF guy and I've only known him for three nights. So has my kind-of-friend BL. We met him at the same time and somehow they're dating!!! She is no longer my kind-of-friend anymore. I hate her!! But, I guess I don't hate her that muich because I actually have a bigger crush on this guy named TK. He is so amzing and I am see him nearly as juch as I need to!! He's the cutest guy I've ever seen, he's hilarious, polite, cool, he's 14, he's cheeky (which IS a good thing), and he's just, awesome!! So to hell with TF because I am in love with TK!!! I miss him already and I just saw him yesterday night!! But about that whole TF and BL thing.... I just don't even get how that can happen. Like how???

Anyway, I should probably explain something to you (whoever is reading this). My Mom & Dad do not know about this and they can never find out. Because, if they do then I won't be able to put any of my real thoughts in here(aka crushes, judgements, stuff about them etc). So therefore, I can only write in this when no one is home, so if I ever leave suddenly, that's why...

Sometimes I wonder if my life is harder than anyone else's, it just seems like I have horribly bad luck. And I hate freaking hate it!! Okay, um... what else to say... if this were anything else I would tell you more about me but I can't have anyone find this blog and then no who Iam because they know me and it's just too much of a coincedince.

So on that note, I should probably go. More later...

Sadly,
Lola Copacabana

Introduction

My name is Lola Copacabana. Well it's not my real name but I prefer this blog to be anonymous. Anyway, when I address people that I interact with in my life I will I will address them by their initials. Example: My best friend's name is RD. I also have other friends such as JS and CM. My brother will be called Bro, and my Parents will be called Mom and Dad. And in case you haven't alreday figured it out, I am a girl. And I am 13. And also one more thing this doesn't actually have spell check so bear with me if I spell something wrong. Anyway, I will write more later but I have to go.

From,
Lola