When You're Gone The Pieces Of My Heart Are Missing You

I just saw him yesterday and he is living proof that the more you see people, the more you miss them. Well, important very much loved people anyways, like BT. I mean, I miss him a lot when I haven't seen him in like a month but some of the memories of when I last saw him will start to kind of fade away. Whereas, I just saw him yesterday and these memories are still fresh in my mind.

Anyway, I suppose I will tell you about yesterday. My finger is no longer aching and there isn't even a mark to remember it by. Gotta love wasps huh? Don't leave any proof, just leave the pain. That way there is only one eye witness, and sometimes none. But moving on, I'll stop ranting.

YESTERDAY:
Bro decided to invite BT over. I was babysitting and when I got home Bro goes: "Oh yeah I hope you don't mind, BT is coming over in like, ten minutes."

IN MY MIND/THE REAL ME:
I'm thinking: "Yessssssssssssssssssssss!!!! I'm gonna see BT!!!! I'm gonna see BT!!!!! Woot woot!!" And so on....

REALITY CHECK/ME IN HUMAN FORM:
I roll my eyes and say: "God Bro, are you kidding me? Why HIM???!!!!????"

So anyway, twelve minutes goes by: BZZZZZZ! goes the buzzer. BT has arrived! We spend the first half hour or so playing SSX on the PS2. I beat BT every time. Hahaha. We then went to a store by my house and bought Lime Crush and Extra Island Blend gum. After that, we went to a park near my house and played Grounders and Tag. After that, Bro and BT went to soccer practice and I was abandoned, home alone, left to daydream about the days events. I had fun. So yes, in case you haven't figured it out yet, I still love that boy.

Lonelying,
LC

The Bee Does Quickly Sting

Or in this case, the wasp stings REALLY freaking fast. OUCH. There was a wasp on my finger that I must have squished because it stung me on the inside of my middle finger on my right hand. So I go: "Ow!" and try to wipe it off. It somehow gets onto my arm and stings me there! OWowowowowowowwowowOW!!!

Anyways, I was with BT when this happened. But I will try and tell you the full story tomorrow because my finger is still aching from that damn wasp.

Ouchingly,
LC

Thanks Ya

Hey,
I forgot to this a while ago. A big thank you to Ashley Kay from 27brokendreams for posting a comment!!! I love your blog.

My other readers; check it out:

www.27brokendreams.blogspot.com

Keep reading!! Love you guys!!! More song recommendations coming soon (on www.lcsongs.blogspot.com), more song demands coming soon (fresh from HERE), and more information on the dreaded yet so so loved: BT.

Bye for now.

Postingly,
LC

It Hurts

Holla,
LC again. Who else?

Tell me: How can I hate someone (say, BT?) so much and cringe when I hear his name because I hate hearing about the stupid things he does and still dream about him at night and wake up smiling when we end up together?? I woke up this morning with the image of him holding my hand in my head and my heart was beating faster and the squeezing feeling deep down that I get every time I think about him like that. How can he keep doing the things that he does to me now like he did before he found out that I liked him? Before I found out that he most likely doesn't like me back? Before I stopped seeing him practically twice every week? I hardly see him now and it just gets harder and harder. Is it possible to be completely and uncontrollably in love with someone at the same time as hating them?

Listen to this song (this isn't a recommendation, it's a demand):

The Nicest Thing - Kate Nash

Listen to the full song (you have to) on www.jango.com

That is EXACTLY, spot-on how I feel.

In happier news, I've stopped biting my nails. Kicked the habit. I've always started painting my nails with cool bright neon colours and also clear nail hardener. They're getting pretty long.

For more from me visit: www.lcsongs.blogspot.com

Twistedly,
LC

Why The Rain?

Come on! Was it really necissary (That is NOT spelt right) to get rid of the sun? I know it's the end of August but the summer started late in the first place, so why can't it just end late??

Today, I went to my church which I'm pretty sure TF doesn't go to anymore. I might never see him again actually. Whatever. MC was there, and I think I really like just being friends. He's a nice guy, even if he is kinda crude. I don't think I told you this but: I told MC that I liked BT. I told him about a month ago and I hadn't seen him since. But I just saw him this morning again. BT wasn't at church. :( But I'm sure I'll see him soon. It's been two weeks since I've seen BT now.

Oh I have something that I forgot to tell you. I'm not sure if I told you HOW I told BT that I liked him. Actually, I didn't. Okay, we were playing Truth or Dare along with Bro and first, Bro dared BT to kiss me on the cheek. Me!!!!! So he did and it was fantastic and yada yada yada...
Anyway, it was BT's turn now so he Truth or Dare'd me and I said "Truth". (He is REALLY good at making up dares, so I said Truth every time he asked me) So he said: "Who do you like?" And I'm thinking 'Oh my god holy crap this is not not not good at all!!!! What am I going to do???' But after a while, I just told him. I figured, why not?? Right??

So anyway, I still don't know for sure if he likes me but that's okay. I still love him and that's all that matters. :)

Well, ta-ta for now! I will write very soon. By the way, I'm getting rid of the Guy-Dar. It's stupid. And I am also sorry for not writing in 'My Songs' yet. If you've checked that anyways. But I'll start soon. Oh and I'll post the link to 'My Songs' later as well. Did I ever even teel you about 'My Songs'?? Hmm.... well anyway now I have.

Itchingly,
LC

Cancelled Camping Trips = ?

I was going to go camping this weekend at Alice Lake from Thursday night (tonight) to Sunday morning. But because of this horrible weather, my trip has been cancelled. And with this free time I will most likely spend it:

1. Going to the theatres to watch the second Sisterhood movie

2. Drinking my first Booster Juice. Yes, I know it's crazy but I really haven't had one

3. Babysitting for that extra pocket $$$

4. Lounging around the house being bored

5. Playing with my Dad's new iPhone

6. And watching MUCH all day long on the TV, hoping that my favourite music videos will snag the top positions in the time-consuming MUCH countdowns.

Pretty productive huh? But if I had gone camping I probably wouldn't be doing much else anyway. I'd just sit in the rain, maybe playing cards, wondering how the hell I got here and why I'm not at home doing one of those six things.

But currently, I am waiting for my friend JS to call me back already and tell me if she's allowed to go to the movies or not. My Mom and Bro are on a run right now. Yeah I know: GEEKS. Well, not exactly I suppose but... I don't know.

Anyways seeing as I just wrote yesterday and I do not have an interesting life like my favourite Working Girl, I will have to stop typing now. Unless I want to continue blabbering on about random things like my favourite colours (green, orange), how bored I am (very), and other stuff that you really don't need (or want) to know about.

So on that note:

Juicily,
LC

Sorry sorry sorry

Well, aren't I a bad person? Not writing is unexceptable, I know. And the only excuse I have is that I've been away like, ALL THE TIME. So sue me, I haven't written. But it's not you that forces herself to sit down on the computer (well not actually ON the COMPUTER, but you know what I mean), share her life story, while happily enduring the pain of the severe finger aches. So anyways, I have a LOT to tell you. A LOT. To make it easier to understand, I will break it down into six very simple (yet quite complex) topics:

1. I told BT that I liked him.

2. I'm pretty sure he doesn't like me back.

3. However, I kept right on loving him.

4. I then forced myself to stop liking him for different reasons. (Well maybe NOT different but...)

5. I replaced him (BT) with EH.

6. I replaced EH with... yeah wait for it... BT. Erg. I can't help it. No matter how hard I try, I still wake up thinking about him and I still fall asleep dreaming about him. And I saw somewhere (actually Facebook) that you should "never give up on someone that you can't go a day without thinking about". I literally cried when I saw that. That's how pathetic I am. That's how pathetic he's made me.

So that is more of my depressing life. I'm pretty sure I've already told you that I write books so I will now tell you that I might indeed write an autobiography someday.

So right now, I am lying to everyone that found out about BT (including my family and two of my close friends) and telling them that I like EH. But pretty much, it's self-defense. At least I'm not lying to my bestest (BT says that all the time) friend: Lily Linkette. Yeah, you know who you are. I haven't told her face-to-face but she'll read this soon enough. Besides, it's easier this way.

So anyhoo, I promise to give the very long, detailed, unabridged, indepth version of these six topics soon enough but not now. Honestly, I've already thought, and overanalyzed (is that spelt right?), and stressed, and dreamt about these topics for too long now. So you'll just have to wait because I really don't want to type it out right now.

So with that, I will sign off extremely temporarily. You know I love you. :)

Patheticly,
LC