Sorry sorry sorry

Well, aren't I a bad person? Not writing is unexceptable, I know. And the only excuse I have is that I've been away like, ALL THE TIME. So sue me, I haven't written. But it's not you that forces herself to sit down on the computer (well not actually ON the COMPUTER, but you know what I mean), share her life story, while happily enduring the pain of the severe finger aches. So anyways, I have a LOT to tell you. A LOT. To make it easier to understand, I will break it down into six very simple (yet quite complex) topics:

1. I told BT that I liked him.

2. I'm pretty sure he doesn't like me back.

3. However, I kept right on loving him.

4. I then forced myself to stop liking him for different reasons. (Well maybe NOT different but...)

5. I replaced him (BT) with EH.

6. I replaced EH with... yeah wait for it... BT. Erg. I can't help it. No matter how hard I try, I still wake up thinking about him and I still fall asleep dreaming about him. And I saw somewhere (actually Facebook) that you should "never give up on someone that you can't go a day without thinking about". I literally cried when I saw that. That's how pathetic I am. That's how pathetic he's made me.

So that is more of my depressing life. I'm pretty sure I've already told you that I write books so I will now tell you that I might indeed write an autobiography someday.

So right now, I am lying to everyone that found out about BT (including my family and two of my close friends) and telling them that I like EH. But pretty much, it's self-defense. At least I'm not lying to my bestest (BT says that all the time) friend: Lily Linkette. Yeah, you know who you are. I haven't told her face-to-face but she'll read this soon enough. Besides, it's easier this way.

So anyhoo, I promise to give the very long, detailed, unabridged, indepth version of these six topics soon enough but not now. Honestly, I've already thought, and overanalyzed (is that spelt right?), and stressed, and dreamt about these topics for too long now. So you'll just have to wait because I really don't want to type it out right now.

So with that, I will sign off extremely temporarily. You know I love you. :)

Patheticly,
LC